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[ ed edd and eddy flashbacks intensify ]
[ Also because she cares and people that are nice to her vanishing makes her sad somewhere in her shriveled little heart. ]
I see, [ she frowns, falls silent for a minute. It is not something she's heard a terrible lot of, but she has heard of it... Where the dead had ended up reborn. ] Well, perhaps you required a rest, Frederick. Times have been trying, it is possible you were sick or wounded enough that they sought to intervene.
If that is the case, I am grateful that they did not decide to make it a permanent solution on your part.
[ Also because she cares and people that are nice to her vanishing makes her sad somewhere in her shriveled little heart. ]
I see, [ she frowns, falls silent for a minute. It is not something she's heard a terrible lot of, but she has heard of it... Where the dead had ended up reborn. ] Well, perhaps you required a rest, Frederick. Times have been trying, it is possible you were sick or wounded enough that they sought to intervene.
If that is the case, I am grateful that they did not decide to make it a permanent solution on your part.
[ She has a point, but he finds it hard to swallow all the time. ]
Many were in more dire condition than I was, from the reports I have heard. Perhaps if I had been here, I might have been able to do something to drive the kidnappers away, or help rescue those kidnapped.
[ Hadn't he spent all his life training for such things, perfectly his skills and building his strength? And yet he here stood, once again unable to do a single thing for those he considered friends.
Regardless, it strikes him that perhaps he ought to be more considerate of Sandra, who lacks many means to accomplish even the simplest of tasks in her current form. ]
But I suppose there will always be a next time, if tensions keep as they are.
[ But! In better news: ]
Though, when you have a moment free, there is something I would like to give you.
Many were in more dire condition than I was, from the reports I have heard. Perhaps if I had been here, I might have been able to do something to drive the kidnappers away, or help rescue those kidnapped.
[ Hadn't he spent all his life training for such things, perfectly his skills and building his strength? And yet he here stood, once again unable to do a single thing for those he considered friends.
Regardless, it strikes him that perhaps he ought to be more considerate of Sandra, who lacks many means to accomplish even the simplest of tasks in her current form. ]
But I suppose there will always be a next time, if tensions keep as they are.
[ But! In better news: ]
Though, when you have a moment free, there is something I would like to give you.
[ Sandra'd been quiet for a bit, but then again, so had the rest of them. At least Red had found an outlet for the morose atmosphere, which is why he's here now. ]
Are you busy, Sandra?
[ Not like she can leave the house, but it's only polite to ask!! ]
Are you busy, Sandra?
[ Not like she can leave the house, but it's only polite to ask!! ]
[ Look clearly she's got some robust TTS here.
Also, with her blessing, he'll get straight to the point. ]
Do you enjoy living with us?
[ He's aware enough to realize things have been turbulent lately. One too many robberies in their own home, and all that. ]
Also, with her blessing, he'll get straight to the point. ]
Do you enjoy living with us?
[ He's aware enough to realize things have been turbulent lately. One too many robberies in their own home, and all that. ]
[ You're lucky technology is more amazing than you, Yusuke. It's a moment longer once again before the little ellipses kick up a response proper, even if it hardly requires any thought. ]
It is certainly not the worst living arrangement I have endured not by far no
You and your company have been most accommodating these past few months
[ She has enjoyed it very much. ]
Rampant thievery notwithstanding dare I say things have been almost nostalgic
It is certainly not the worst living arrangement I have endured not by far no
You and your company have been most accommodating these past few months
[ She has enjoyed it very much. ]
Rampant thievery notwithstanding dare I say things have been almost nostalgic
[ Even if she's more or less just saying that they're not the absolute rock-bottom roommates, it's a little surprising. She'd have every reason to dislike it by now, displaced as they've been—her in particular. ]
Nostalgic, you say.
Did you come from a full house once before?
Nostalgic, you say.
Did you come from a full house once before?
[ On the contrary, they're probably the best roommates she's ever had, or at least the best she's had in a long damn time. The last she knew of the Nightwings were a close second, fondly remembered, but it was only one of them she dealt with in any sort of intimacy akin to this. ]
Of a sort
A blackwagon actually
Of course faces and names do tend to change a handful of times over the course of 800 years of travel but there was very nearly always a wagon
Always cramped full of incompetent misfits scraping out existences on the perpetual border of misery but I always had my place
[ A brief pause, in the sudden spam of wistful text. Is it wistful? Certainly not. Her place was a safe constant, upon the cluttered table nestled between Books and lute, but it was also her place to be a means to an end. ]
I would hazard to say that I have a bit more of a comfortable one here
Of a sort
A blackwagon actually
Of course faces and names do tend to change a handful of times over the course of 800 years of travel but there was very nearly always a wagon
Always cramped full of incompetent misfits scraping out existences on the perpetual border of misery but I always had my place
[ A brief pause, in the sudden spam of wistful text. Is it wistful? Certainly not. Her place was a safe constant, upon the cluttered table nestled between Books and lute, but it was also her place to be a means to an end. ]
I would hazard to say that I have a bit more of a comfortable one here
[ He wonders what difference it makes to live in a wagon versus a home for someone without a body—was she aware of her own travels? Could she sense somehow how rocky the roads were for herself, or the things that surrounded her? Or was it always through the eyes of whoever she lived with?
...Better than being alone, in any case. 800 years of quietude sounds maddening. ]
I see. [ He's glad to hear it. ]
Well, that much hasn't changed.
We too are but misfits carving out our space in the world.
But I'm learning... as that space expands, the harder it is to protect it.
I'm sorry if you've felt unsafe.
...Better than being alone, in any case. 800 years of quietude sounds maddening. ]
I see. [ He's glad to hear it. ]
Well, that much hasn't changed.
We too are but misfits carving out our space in the world.
But I'm learning... as that space expands, the harder it is to protect it.
I'm sorry if you've felt unsafe.
It seems there is always enlightenment to be gained even here
Best to keep those spaces small Yusuke there is little merit to stretching oneself too thin for those who can or may not return the favor
But do not worry your head over me it has been quite some time since I have felt unsafe
You understand it is a bit difficult to feel such when death and dismemberment have become impossibilities
[ Bit difficult to feel such when death would be a far greater blessing than it would be a tragedy. But she had, for the first time in forever, experienced some sort of compromise. Experienced her mind collapsing and turning against itself with whatever foul witchings the kidnappers had bestowed upon her, that she is still attempting to shake. Perhaps it was safe to say that she had felt scared, in the end. Being finally stripped down to the insanity she so rightfully deserves after all this time in exile. ]
Perhaps I have found myself quite repeatedly inconvenienced since finding my place among you and your friends but you have all just as repeatedly come to fetch me in the end
For that you ought to be given some form of credit
Best to keep those spaces small Yusuke there is little merit to stretching oneself too thin for those who can or may not return the favor
But do not worry your head over me it has been quite some time since I have felt unsafe
You understand it is a bit difficult to feel such when death and dismemberment have become impossibilities
[ Bit difficult to feel such when death would be a far greater blessing than it would be a tragedy. But she had, for the first time in forever, experienced some sort of compromise. Experienced her mind collapsing and turning against itself with whatever foul witchings the kidnappers had bestowed upon her, that she is still attempting to shake. Perhaps it was safe to say that she had felt scared, in the end. Being finally stripped down to the insanity she so rightfully deserves after all this time in exile. ]
Perhaps I have found myself quite repeatedly inconvenienced since finding my place among you and your friends but you have all just as repeatedly come to fetch me in the end
For that you ought to be given some form of credit
Precisely. Keep your focus forward and do not worry yourself so over things beyond your control.
[ Spoken a bit pointedly because yes, frustrating as it might be at times, she has long since given up feeling any particular way for her inaction. It is simply her state of being, and she has no say in the matter. Much like Frederick's must have been, trapped away in cold slumber. ]
[ But yes, moving on. ]
You should know not a day goes by in which I have a moment free. Consequently, however, I am always free. [ Cue laugh track, provided by yours truly. ] Though I am afraid that I have changed residences since last we spoke.
[ Also... a bit pointedly. But perhaps she should refrain from jabs at his navigational prowess if he intends to give her... something, apparently. She gives him an address instead! ]
[ Spoken a bit pointedly because yes, frustrating as it might be at times, she has long since given up feeling any particular way for her inaction. It is simply her state of being, and she has no say in the matter. Much like Frederick's must have been, trapped away in cold slumber. ]
[ But yes, moving on. ]
You should know not a day goes by in which I have a moment free. Consequently, however, I am always free. [ Cue laugh track, provided by yours truly. ] Though I am afraid that I have changed residences since last we spoke.
[ Also... a bit pointedly. But perhaps she should refrain from jabs at his navigational prowess if he intends to give her... something, apparently. She gives him an address instead! ]
Perhaps so. I must sound naive to someone so long-lived.
But I've found it's dangerous to keep the heart so cloistered, too. Better to open it to tragedy than rob oneself of happiness.
[ There's value in a wider perspective as well. But the point is: ]
I wouldn't have met you all otherwise.
A year ago, I would've declined a spot in yet another busy home.
And then you would be short someone who'd worry about your well-being in your stead.
[ Maybe she might not fear death, but he does. And there's worse besides; the world can be so genuinely ugly, cruel beyond the lengths of his imagination. He worries. She should too. ]
But I've found it's dangerous to keep the heart so cloistered, too. Better to open it to tragedy than rob oneself of happiness.
[ There's value in a wider perspective as well. But the point is: ]
I wouldn't have met you all otherwise.
A year ago, I would've declined a spot in yet another busy home.
And then you would be short someone who'd worry about your well-being in your stead.
[ Maybe she might not fear death, but he does. And there's worse besides; the world can be so genuinely ugly, cruel beyond the lengths of his imagination. He worries. She should too. ]
If you ever wish to sound less so you would do well to remember that your tragedy is ultimately quantifiable
[ Though it is more her circumstance than her immortality that inclines her to strive for thicker skin. After all. It isn't as if she can protect anyone in kind. As the days grow more dangerous, her value plummets somehow further. And yet they still choose to keep her around and worry. ]
But neither am I here to rob you of your happiness
Nor I suppose mine for the moment do excuse me
It is far from the most unpleasant band of misfits you could have chosen to finally make yourself a part of Yusuke and I am grateful it has drawn you to some sort of fulfillment as well as our paths to a crossing point
Do not mistake my apathy for total displeasure
If our arrangement strays from enjoyable territory you shall all catch an earful of that I can assure you
[ She appreciates you all a great deal more than she cares to admit, mostly to herself. ]
[ Though it is more her circumstance than her immortality that inclines her to strive for thicker skin. After all. It isn't as if she can protect anyone in kind. As the days grow more dangerous, her value plummets somehow further. And yet they still choose to keep her around and worry. ]
But neither am I here to rob you of your happiness
Nor I suppose mine for the moment do excuse me
It is far from the most unpleasant band of misfits you could have chosen to finally make yourself a part of Yusuke and I am grateful it has drawn you to some sort of fulfillment as well as our paths to a crossing point
Do not mistake my apathy for total displeasure
If our arrangement strays from enjoyable territory you shall all catch an earful of that I can assure you
[ She appreciates you all a great deal more than she cares to admit, mostly to herself. ]
[ Wow!! He's gotten better since then, let him live.....Her barb strikes home and his lips thin as he responds. ]
I'm certain I shall be able to find your new residence with little trouble. I have spent more time on the streets of Olympia since last we spoke.
[ Just believe in him!!!!! But he promises to arrive shortly and arrive shortly he does, knocking on the front door of their new address not too long after. (Will she believe in him now, probably not.) Our favorite NPC Red-chan opens the door and ushers him in, and it's not long before he's making his way towards Sandra's location, a small bag in his hands. ]
My lady Sandra?
[ Is she on her new cat tree... ]
I'm certain I shall be able to find your new residence with little trouble. I have spent more time on the streets of Olympia since last we spoke.
[ Just believe in him!!!!! But he promises to arrive shortly and arrive shortly he does, knocking on the front door of their new address not too long after. (Will she believe in him now, probably not.) Our favorite NPC Red-chan opens the door and ushers him in, and it's not long before he's making his way towards Sandra's location, a small bag in his hands. ]
My lady Sandra?
[ Is she on her new cat tree... ]
I'll risk looking foolish.
[ He's still growing, still learning. Even now, it's difficult for him to gauge people sometimes. A work in progress. With Sandra it's especially difficult, what with the lack of body language—he's better with visual cues. But if she says she doesn't completely dislike them, that's something.
...Maybe he'd been too quick to assume it was more than that. But one feels what they feel—man is slave to sentiment. Besides, it seems she finds their arrangement tolerable enough despite all the mishaps lately, so he'll take the small victories. That said, ]
Red and I are in the midst of reconstructions. Your usual pedestal included, of course.
I trust if it isn't to your liking you'll let us know that as well. But I'm certain that when we're finished, it will outshine our last work by far.
[ He's still growing, still learning. Even now, it's difficult for him to gauge people sometimes. A work in progress. With Sandra it's especially difficult, what with the lack of body language—he's better with visual cues. But if she says she doesn't completely dislike them, that's something.
...Maybe he'd been too quick to assume it was more than that. But one feels what they feel—man is slave to sentiment. Besides, it seems she finds their arrangement tolerable enough despite all the mishaps lately, so he'll take the small victories. That said, ]
Red and I are in the midst of reconstructions. Your usual pedestal included, of course.
I trust if it isn't to your liking you'll let us know that as well. But I'm certain that when we're finished, it will outshine our last work by far.
[There is a letter in the mail. Sealed with wax impressed with a fancy CB and addressed to Sandra. Inside, the handwriting leaves... much to be desired.
Should one of her roommates be kind enough to read it to her, it reads,]
Dearest Sandra,
How are you? I'm sorry Ithro threw your orb and stabbed your friend Akira.
From,
Camulus Arune Buckland the Third.
Should one of her roommates be kind enough to read it to her, it reads,]
Dearest Sandra,
How are you? I'm sorry I
From,
Camulus Arune Buckland the Third.
[ Luckily her roommates are kind indeed... What she does immediately in response is call the fellow up. Because she doesn't have hands, Camulus. Or eyes. Without so much as a greeting, the voice that launches is as curt as it is cutting. ]
Tell me, Camulus, do you enjoy making things woefully difficult for yourself and for those around you, or is it some kind of compulsion? Some sort of manic obsession, a nervous tic, a witch's curse? Is there a sieve lodged into your skull where your brain should be? I have to know, or I fear I shall finally go mad myself in my attempts to comprehend it.
[ On top of his... faux pas... as addressed, even if it was by no fault of theirs, they didn't exactly leave on the most pleasant of terms. ]
Tell me, Camulus, do you enjoy making things woefully difficult for yourself and for those around you, or is it some kind of compulsion? Some sort of manic obsession, a nervous tic, a witch's curse? Is there a sieve lodged into your skull where your brain should be? I have to know, or I fear I shall finally go mad myself in my attempts to comprehend it.
[ On top of his... faux pas... as addressed, even if it was by no fault of theirs, they didn't exactly leave on the most pleasant of terms. ]
Wha—
[So salty, right off of the bat.]
Well. Eldie Buckland always said my head wasn't screwed on straight.
[Honestly, it's a little bit of all of that. He absolutely likes to get a rise out of people, but beyond that the same things that make him so easy going also make him a little bit too casual and forgetful about things that should probably be important.Good ol' -1 intelligence modifier.]
You sound mad.
[So salty, right off of the bat.]
Well. Eldie Buckland always said my head wasn't screwed on straight.
[Honestly, it's a little bit of all of that. He absolutely likes to get a rise out of people, but beyond that the same things that make him so easy going also make him a little bit too casual and forgetful about things that should probably be important.
You sound mad.
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[ Sometimes you just have to get it all out there in one breath. ]
An accurate assessment from a no-doubt venerable fellow screwball in your makeshift lineage. You ought to heed it once in a while.
[ She could go after his whole troupe if she wanted to, without any sort of preamble to knowing more than she should about the lot of it... Miraculously, logic and circumstance get her beneath the arms and hold her back, but that doesn't mean she can't still berate his -1 Intelligence. ]
I believe I reserve the right to be, at the very least, irritated by this point, wouldn't you say?
An accurate assessment from a no-doubt venerable fellow screwball in your makeshift lineage. You ought to heed it once in a while.
[ She could go after his whole troupe if she wanted to, without any sort of preamble to knowing more than she should about the lot of it... Miraculously, logic and circumstance get her beneath the arms and hold her back, but that doesn't mean she can't still berate his -1 Intelligence. ]
I believe I reserve the right to be, at the very least, irritated by this point, wouldn't you say?
[She can't see it, but Cam is pouting a little on the other side of the phone,]
I mean, I rescued you so that should be worth a few points?
['Rescued' is a very liberal way to put it. Sure he got her out of there but everything else about it was... complicated. Still! And of course he's ignoring that she might be mad because he sent her a physical letter that she could neither touch nor read.]
Sorry I didn't call you sooner. It felt... weird.
[Not to mention the last time he was over there he and Red sort of hashed it out too.]
I mean, I rescued you so that should be worth a few points?
['Rescued' is a very liberal way to put it. Sure he got her out of there but everything else about it was... complicated. Still! And of course he's ignoring that she might be mad because he sent her a physical letter that she could neither touch nor read.]
Sorry I didn't call you sooner. It felt... weird.
[Not to mention the last time he was over there he and Red sort of hashed it out too.]
[ Don't worry, she might not be able to Read over the phone, but she knows a pout when she hears one. ]
You were an... accessory to my recovery, if I recall. [ An accessory much like tying a jingle bell to a stealthing assassin, but for once, by no fault of his own. She lets out a sigh, listing more weary than it is irritated. ] Frankly, this is all the least of what you ought to be apologizing for. Neither of us were in our right minds. Akira understands just as well, of that I am certain.
[ And honestly, she hasn't talked to much of anyone lately, on account of feeling weird. Restless and frustrated and frayed over the whole ordeal, of having what little sense of self she still retains scrambled such. ]
Regardless of your success, yes, I suppose that is twice now that you have come for me. I should thank you.
You were an... accessory to my recovery, if I recall. [ An accessory much like tying a jingle bell to a stealthing assassin, but for once, by no fault of his own. She lets out a sigh, listing more weary than it is irritated. ] Frankly, this is all the least of what you ought to be apologizing for. Neither of us were in our right minds. Akira understands just as well, of that I am certain.
[ And honestly, she hasn't talked to much of anyone lately, on account of feeling weird. Restless and frustrated and frayed over the whole ordeal, of having what little sense of self she still retains scrambled such. ]
Regardless of your success, yes, I suppose that is twice now that you have come for me. I should thank you.
[That's good enough. Cam seems pleased enough knowing she's not Super mad at him,]
Aw it's no big deal, Sandy. You know I'd do it for you again.
[Her rescue may have not been the most heroic and successful, but he's glad it worked out in any case.]
Aw it's no big deal, Sandy. You know I'd do it for you again.
[Her rescue may have not been the most heroic and successful, but he's glad it worked out in any case.]
[ Hard to be mad for something they had very little control over. She holds a wicked petty grudge, sometimes, but not for this. ]
You are nothing if not obstinate.
[ For real, she appreciates it. Being rescued, being reached out to, in spite of her figurative ghosting. Even if his methods were... Okay you know what there's a bit of a petty grudge. ]
But that aside, if I could impress a single fact upon your indomitable stubbornness, if I could incite the slightest change of heart, Camulus, for my sake and my sanity, should you presume to care so much... You would do well to get it through your skull that I cannot read a written letter.
You are nothing if not obstinate.
[ For real, she appreciates it. Being rescued, being reached out to, in spite of her figurative ghosting. Even if his methods were... Okay you know what there's a bit of a petty grudge. ]
But that aside, if I could impress a single fact upon your indomitable stubbornness, if I could incite the slightest change of heart, Camulus, for my sake and my sanity, should you presume to care so much... You would do well to get it through your skull that I cannot read a written letter.
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